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Describing myself accurately, or briefly for that matter, has never come easy to me especially to a crowd of faceless strangers over the internet. So with this, bear with me as I unravel complex sentences onto this page to merely explain who I am as a person and hopefully to draw some interest out of some of you that are willing to listen or read.
I’ll start out with the obvious, my name is Taylor Lynne. Just call me Taylor though because I’m only using my middle name so none of you have to attempt to pronounce my last name. I’m eighteen years old, wishing to stay this young forever as cliché as that is. I live in the exceptional state of New Hampshire which I could complain about but honestly, it could be worse. I live with my dad currently while I finish up my fifth year of high school since my health determined my fate of being a super senior. Afterwards, I’d love to become a nurse and maybe a forensic psychologist when I’m much older. With that, I’ll be attending some sort of Community College for about a year in Boston and transferring, hopefully, to Mass Pharmaceutical where I will be taking an accelerated RN course.
I’m very much into anatomy for the soul purpose that my health has been a huge factor into who I’ve been shaped into today. My current diagnoses have been all of the following: Lymes Disease, Chronic Fatigue Syndrome, Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder, ADD, and Bipolar Disorder. The core reason I am so straightforward and open with my medical agileness’ is for my own acceptance of living everyday with each and every one. Many take it as the need for sympathy or attention but really it’s just to make my problems real to myself. I’ve come to notice that many have made mental or social illnesses a fad which really bothers me, seeing as though I suffer from many. It’s truly one of the most struggling obstacles to overcome every single day and should never be glorified. It’s very real and can bring people to dark places if not taken care of. I know because I’ve been there with many doctors visits, drug abuse, self image problems, and self harm. With glorification, people don’t take these disorders and diseases as seriously as they once were, preventing help for ones who actual deal with them everyday. Maybe I’m being completely out of line with even mentioning it, but it’s been bothering me to my gut with each stupid post I see about it.
Also suffering from all of the above, I’ve realized how short life can be and most would take that in to become straight edge but I’ve done quite the opposite. I want to enhance my life as much as possible and since I’m going to die regardless of what I do, I do use drugs, nicotine, alcohol, and cannabis. Now, my nicotine intake is the only one that truly bothers me because I do realize how pointless it is but at the same time, I shamelessly love cigarettes. I smoke weed on a daily basis, about a few times a day as well. I own pieces upon pieces and spend far too much money on smoking accessories but I’ve found complete lowering of social anxiety and a way to make new, awesome friends through it. I drink only occasionally when in social gatherings but love when I do get drunk. I find it one of the most entertaining activities if used in moderation. Drug wise, I don’t do many drugs often. I only do recreational drugs sporadically in social gatherings much like alcohol, but not nearly as much. I’ve tried Molly, OCs (I don’t do this anymore.), and Acid. I really would love to try DMT but seeing as though it can be life altering, it may never happen. If you don’t agree with my lifestyle choices, then keep quiet about them. They’re my opinions and decisions about my body and I really couldn’t care less about your intake on it unless it’s an interesting fact about any of the above.
As you may already be able to tell, I can be easily annoyed with people. As hypocritical as it is, I’m very judgmental and cynical on people’s perspectives and the world itself. I do make comments openly and am completely stubborn with each opinion I have but am totally willing to listen to others because I love hearing every side to an argument. I try to inform myself as much as possible on each subject I can so I have strong beliefs, values, opinions, and outlooks on life. This tends to be difficult though since there is so much to explore out there.
With that being said, my beliefs could be described as controversial or even confusing to some. I’m an agnostic, to start off. I may make constant jokes about God not being real or Jesus not doing all the things that have been claimed about him, but that’s purely because I do not believe in the institution of any church. I think their rules set upon us are restraining and hypocritical. Not only that, but many of the beliefs and commandments of the church itself influence how the government has formed which utterly diminishes the separation of church and state. Beliefs are meant to be personal, not spread throughout a population that doesn’t hold the same values as others. Although I disagree the institution, I do believe there is something greater than us and there is a purpose for each soul brought to life of any kind. I’m not sure exactly what that is nor will I ever find out, but that’s what I hold.
Additional to my religious beliefs, I’m completely against the closed curtain of the United States government. I believe in 9/11 Truth and I think the Federal Reserve is far too involved with the government which is part of the whole belief in the 9/11 conspiracy theory. For economic purposes, I would label myself as a Republican because I think the less taxes, the better. The less the government is in our lives, the better. But with social issues, I could be called a Democrat because I think some of the social laws of the US are completely ludicrous and unjust. I believe that medical marijuana and marijuana in general should be legalized, gay marriage should be legalized, and sex workers should be legalized. I would explain why I believe all of this, but that might take another page up.
Another belief is that sex is fucking natural. I’m completely against the idea of slut shaming because women have been oppressed completely from sexuality. I’m not meaning to go feminist on all your asses, but in the simplest terms, I love sex! With girls and guys! And I’m sure a lot of people do as well! It’s an enjoyable, sometimes loving, pleasurable act that no one should be insulted or discriminated by. No matter how they practice it. Although I seem like I’m being that “free woman, social media makes women look like their objects!” which I can completely agree on in some points, also with men as well, I am completely into being treated as the submissive when it comes to sex. Bondage is the sex I practice, light bondage, but still bondage. Being treated as an object or less, when not making love, is something that turns me on more than anything. And although this is too much information, it is a factor of who I am in relationships and I’m happy this way.
From this paragraph, you probably think I’m a stiff person from the voice that it blares through the screen but really I’m extremely poetic with everything I write and I write constantly. If you read my personal blog you may be able to see more of the emotional writings I’m talking about rather than this boring, informative one that just sounds like an essay really. Because lets be honest, who likes reading essays about someones fucking personality?
Speaking of my personality, I may be one of the most open, vulgar, and grossest people you will ever come across. I make dirty jokes as if it is my job and don’t hold back in what I say. I will come up with the nastiest crap you will ever hear come out of such a little girls mouth and following it always will be a grin taking up my entire face in response to your shock.
I also am very, very into modifications and will someday have many more than I already do. Currently, I have one tattoo of an hourglass on my ribs and another of the text “O Captain! My Captain!” below my left boob. I’m saving up for my next few and hope to have at least one sleeve done by the time I’m in a hospital working. For piercings, I have 16g double navels, 20g double right nostril, 20g single left nostril, 16g nipples, 00g lobes, and 18g second right lobe. For piercings, I’m taking a major halt unless I decide to get some sort of dermal in my body at some point of my life.
One very important aspect of who I am is who I call my friends. They put up with my manic ways and I could never describe my appreciation towards them. I would do, quite literally, anything for my friends happiness’ seeing as though they are my entire world. I’ve realized within the past few years who my true friends are from them sticking around despite my complexities and flaws that can drive them mad. I’m also probably most immature when I’m with my friends because our humor is better than most and I really don’t care what anyone else has to say. I’m always welcomed to new friends as well so if you ever want to talk, I’m fucking game!
I’m also one of the most obsessive people around, I try not to let my obsessions overwhelm people but they always tend to. Pugs and my own dog being one of my many weaknesses, you will hear me endlessly talk about them without any holding back. I could list more but seeing as though most of them change with each coming day, it’s really just an empty effort to put in.
I may be hypocritical, stubborn, and still immature but with my flaws come my positive aspects too. I’m still learning and growing with each and everyday, knowing that I may be a completely different person when I’m older. Hopefully with that, I am a better one. If you did read all this, I’m pretty impressed because I’m entirely not that interesting whatsoever. And if you did, you should also message my ass because I would love to hear your intake or have a nice, quality conversation!
Likes: Deep conversations, pugs, drawing, books upon books, never going to school, beanies, Anatomy, fall leaves, surfing, Massachusetts, my pipe, my bong, rain, longboarding, the smell of cigarettes, thin bodies, tattoos, mischief, romance, comedy, rats, dreamcatchers, skaters, offensive bloggers, dreads, piercings, fannies, polaroids, incense, horror, butts, any video game on n64, vinyls, writing, going to shows, anime, organization, shopping online for things I can’t afford, comfy & nice looking bed areas, graffiti, lyricism, candles, mermaids, conspiracy theories, documentaries, netflix in general, making friends through smoking, acoustic covers, being a fool in public, Sailor Moon, investigation television, impulsive decisions, my dog, and the love of my life who’s a thousand miles away.
Dislikes: Scene kids, people with horrible music taste, snow, coldness, being alone, ignorance for others, overprotectiveness, being jealous of others, when people flirt with the one I’m crazy about, slut-shaming, glorification of any type of disorder or disease, when people call me psychotic without any knowing of my problems, my body, fatness, eating fatty foods, certain words that gross me out, conservative people, homophobes, and any sort of creep, sexual predator, or attention fiending person.
If you want to know my movie tastes or tv show interests, just look at my blog.